LOVE'S DEMISE
1. I AM IN PAIN, THAT IS MY OWN. YOU MAY HAVE FOUND A WAY TO DISPERSE THE PAIN. I, ON THE OTHER HAND, LIVE WITH IT. BATTLES ARE MEANT TO BE FOUGHT AND WON. I WILL DO IT ALONE OR DIE LONELY. THAT IS THE LONELY TRUTH THAT I FACE IN THIS WAR. A WAR THAT THERE COULD NEVER BE A VICTOR, ONLY VICTIMS.
2. THE MEMORIES THAT I HAVE SO CHERISHED WILL NEVER BE SEPARATED FROM ME. IT HAS BINDED WITH MY SOUL AND TO THE DEPTHS OF MY BEING. YOUR FACE WILL FOREVER BE FORGED INTO MY HEART AS A LASTING REMINDER OF A TIME WHEN I WAS HAPPY AND A HAUNTING TRUTH THAT I NOW LIVE.
3. TO UPLIFT LIFE TO THE BETTERMENT OF ONESELF IS THE GOAL OF EVERY PERSON. RATIONAL AND PRACTICAL GOALS HAVE TO BE REACHED AND ACCOMPLISHED. YOU HAVE MADE THE DECISIONS THAT WILL IMPROVE YOUR LIFE. THAT FOR YOU STARTED WHEN I WAS GONE. LIFE IS A LOT HAPPIER IF BARRIERS ARE FEW AND OBSTACLES ARE LITTLE. YOU GOT RID OF THE BIGGEST OF THEM.
4. THE JOURNEY TO SELF IS ONE THAT I CANNOT UNDERTAKE FOR I HAVE BEEN THERE ONCE. I CANNOT RECLAIM THAT WHICH WAS NEVER MEANT TO ME MINE NOR WHO I NEVER WAS. FROM THERE, THE ROAD LAID TO ME IS FAR MORE GLOOMIER AND TORTUROUS THAN THAT OF WHAT YOU TREK. I KNOW YOU WILL FIND YOURSELF AND FIND THE RIGHT PATH THAT YOU MUST TAKE. A PATH OPPOSITE OF THAT OF MINE.
5. I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN SURE OF MYSELF. NOW, I'M LOOKING FOR SOMETHING THAT I LOST. RESPECT, HONOR, AND ABOVE ALL ELSE LOVE. I KNOW YOU WILL NEVER NEED TO LOOK FOR LOVE. I GIVE IT TO YOU FREELY AND UNCONDITIONALLY. BUT THAT IS NOT THE LOVE THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO FIND IN YOUR HEART. NOTHING THAT WOULD CORRUPT YOU AND LAY WASTE ALL THAT SOUL SEARCHING EFFORTS. IF THE TIME COMES, AND I KNOW IT WILL COME SOON, THAT YOU FIND YOUR SELF, I WILL NEVER BE PART OF IT.
6. YOU SHOULD VENTURE OUT TOWARDS THOSE THAT YOU LIKE AND NOT TO THOSE THAT YOU HATE, ME.
7. HAPPINESS WILL ALWAYS BE A FUTILE EFFORT TO UPLIFT YOUR EMOTIONS IF THERE WILL BE NO ONE TO SHARE IT WITH. HAPPINESS OF ONE PREDISPOSITION WILL INCREASE YOUR CONFENDENCE IN YOURSELF BUT TO EXPERIENCE IT FOR YOUR HEARTS CONTENT IT HAS TO BE REFLECTED BACK. OPTION TO CHOOSE FROM WILL DETERMINE THE OUTCOME OF ONE'S HAPPINESS. THEY MAY LEAD OR MISDIRECT YOU. LIFE HAS SHOWN ME THOSE CHOICES BEFORE. SADLY, I MADE THE WRONG ONES.
8. YOU WILL BE OPEN FOR WHAT LIFE WILL OFFER YOU CONCERNING OTHERS BUT I AM SAD TO ACCEPT THAT LIFE HAS CLOSED THE CHAPTER ABOUT ME. THE POSSIBILITIES ARE BOUNDLESS IF IT ONLY CONCERN OTHERS AND NOT ME. MY ONLY POSSIBILITY FOR A LIFE, I MISSED.
9. YOU HAVE DONE A GREAT JOB FIXING THE DAMAGE THAT I HAVE CAUSED YOU. THERE WAS A LOT TO SALVAGE BUT SAD TO SAY NONE WAS LEFT FOR ME.
10. I PRAY THAT I FIND THE COURAGE TO ACCEPT MY DEMISE, THE DETERMINATION TO FIND THAT WHICH I LOST, THE STRENGTH TO CONTINUE, THE VIRTUE OF NOT CAUSING OTHER PEOPLE'S PAIN AND THE WISDOM OF NEVER TO FALL IN LOVE AGAIN.
2. THE MEMORIES THAT I HAVE SO CHERISHED WILL NEVER BE SEPARATED FROM ME. IT HAS BINDED WITH MY SOUL AND TO THE DEPTHS OF MY BEING. YOUR FACE WILL FOREVER BE FORGED INTO MY HEART AS A LASTING REMINDER OF A TIME WHEN I WAS HAPPY AND A HAUNTING TRUTH THAT I NOW LIVE.
3. TO UPLIFT LIFE TO THE BETTERMENT OF ONESELF IS THE GOAL OF EVERY PERSON. RATIONAL AND PRACTICAL GOALS HAVE TO BE REACHED AND ACCOMPLISHED. YOU HAVE MADE THE DECISIONS THAT WILL IMPROVE YOUR LIFE. THAT FOR YOU STARTED WHEN I WAS GONE. LIFE IS A LOT HAPPIER IF BARRIERS ARE FEW AND OBSTACLES ARE LITTLE. YOU GOT RID OF THE BIGGEST OF THEM.
4. THE JOURNEY TO SELF IS ONE THAT I CANNOT UNDERTAKE FOR I HAVE BEEN THERE ONCE. I CANNOT RECLAIM THAT WHICH WAS NEVER MEANT TO ME MINE NOR WHO I NEVER WAS. FROM THERE, THE ROAD LAID TO ME IS FAR MORE GLOOMIER AND TORTUROUS THAN THAT OF WHAT YOU TREK. I KNOW YOU WILL FIND YOURSELF AND FIND THE RIGHT PATH THAT YOU MUST TAKE. A PATH OPPOSITE OF THAT OF MINE.
5. I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN SURE OF MYSELF. NOW, I'M LOOKING FOR SOMETHING THAT I LOST. RESPECT, HONOR, AND ABOVE ALL ELSE LOVE. I KNOW YOU WILL NEVER NEED TO LOOK FOR LOVE. I GIVE IT TO YOU FREELY AND UNCONDITIONALLY. BUT THAT IS NOT THE LOVE THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO FIND IN YOUR HEART. NOTHING THAT WOULD CORRUPT YOU AND LAY WASTE ALL THAT SOUL SEARCHING EFFORTS. IF THE TIME COMES, AND I KNOW IT WILL COME SOON, THAT YOU FIND YOUR SELF, I WILL NEVER BE PART OF IT.
6. YOU SHOULD VENTURE OUT TOWARDS THOSE THAT YOU LIKE AND NOT TO THOSE THAT YOU HATE, ME.
7. HAPPINESS WILL ALWAYS BE A FUTILE EFFORT TO UPLIFT YOUR EMOTIONS IF THERE WILL BE NO ONE TO SHARE IT WITH. HAPPINESS OF ONE PREDISPOSITION WILL INCREASE YOUR CONFENDENCE IN YOURSELF BUT TO EXPERIENCE IT FOR YOUR HEARTS CONTENT IT HAS TO BE REFLECTED BACK. OPTION TO CHOOSE FROM WILL DETERMINE THE OUTCOME OF ONE'S HAPPINESS. THEY MAY LEAD OR MISDIRECT YOU. LIFE HAS SHOWN ME THOSE CHOICES BEFORE. SADLY, I MADE THE WRONG ONES.
8. YOU WILL BE OPEN FOR WHAT LIFE WILL OFFER YOU CONCERNING OTHERS BUT I AM SAD TO ACCEPT THAT LIFE HAS CLOSED THE CHAPTER ABOUT ME. THE POSSIBILITIES ARE BOUNDLESS IF IT ONLY CONCERN OTHERS AND NOT ME. MY ONLY POSSIBILITY FOR A LIFE, I MISSED.
9. YOU HAVE DONE A GREAT JOB FIXING THE DAMAGE THAT I HAVE CAUSED YOU. THERE WAS A LOT TO SALVAGE BUT SAD TO SAY NONE WAS LEFT FOR ME.
10. I PRAY THAT I FIND THE COURAGE TO ACCEPT MY DEMISE, THE DETERMINATION TO FIND THAT WHICH I LOST, THE STRENGTH TO CONTINUE, THE VIRTUE OF NOT CAUSING OTHER PEOPLE'S PAIN AND THE WISDOM OF NEVER TO FALL IN LOVE AGAIN.
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