Its been a awhile!!

Its been a awhile since i last wrote on my blog. There has been a lot of changes in my life since then though most aren't the type to be proud of. Since last Feb, I became a full pledge physician (only in the Philippines by the way!!). Hooraaayyy!!! I had my doubts about it but thanks the the guy above I passed it. Since then, I've been trainging my self for plastic surgery (AKA: nip/tuck!! hahahaha!)

Well that's in the past already. I guess I just want to write about something. I wrote this after my OR for my GF:

"It eats me up inside, knowing that I'm all that you don't want and everything you're not looking for but I try to be what you expect.
I'm not sensitive but I try to understand.
I'm not sweet and affectionate but i try show you that I love you.
I make you cry but I try to say sorry and make-up for it each day.
I don't say the right things but I try to express my feeling through writing.
I did nothing to fight for you when you want to leave but I try to be proud of us and you.
I look like an ass and act like one most of the time but i try to clean my shit when it falls.
I'm not independent but i try to fix my life to make you happy.
I'm far fromfrom what you thought I would be but I'm trying not to disappoint your expectations."

What's up with this? Well lets say, we had a small misunderstanding. Its sad i know.



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