How I Remember You

With your head resting quietly on my lap
I hum for you a lullaby while you sleep
Gently I comb away the hair away from your face
A peaceful soul in front of me makes me sigh

A child-like pout you do after being tickled
Always followed by a wonderful little smile
You hated me for what I did
I love you were the only sound that came in the end

This is how I want to remember you
Faith may not have been in my favor
Life may not have been kind
I still remember you as a baby of mine

Days have been cloudy and gloomy
The sun peeking through gaps in the sky
Memories keep me company at times
A single soul hums a lullaby to say goodbye.

The problem with my life is that it plays like a jukebox with a broken selector which plays one song after the other. Or worst, it plays a medley of songs out off tune or out off melody. Just like trying to DJ mix "que sera sera" with a hard raock song. As vague as I may try to illustrate how I feel to put it simply, my life has more twist and turns than a roller coaster. I'm at a point that I ate up several feelings blended together in a mix that even my tears doesn't know if it should fall or not.

Weird..... Vague.... I don't know what I'm Saying.

As for now, after all that I have wrote down in my blog, I find myself in a place strangely familiar to me. It seems that I return to this place although the surroundings are different now. The wind blows in a different direction. Even the ground underneath my feet feels that it changed from the sand of a beach to this cobble stone path I walk on now. But still, there is still that akward feeling that I know this place. I know, I know this place.

There is this single path that I stand on. There is just one road.

It seems I've been walking this path over and over again.